ah fort whyte. you tire me out so very much. today i was a walking target for water guns...yup just me...no one else. it was cold and the kids kept trying to get my eyes haha. so i told them my tattoo was a target to distract them from my face, worked very well :P they were fascinated by my turtle.
i had my second driving lesson today, doing pretty damn good i must say. hopefully i'll get my licsense before school starts. im excited for future road trip possibilities XD
2 more days of being a camp counselor then long weekend. going to kenora with marty the party!!!! woohooo. so excited!
peace.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
the fort.
i smell of swamp, sunscreen and little kid. four more days of sunburn, screaming children, algae, and being a water bus for children that think seaweed will eat them. hrmph
Sunday, July 24, 2011
content.
skype is my best friend. it sees my face more than my friends. its seen me at my worst and at my best....and even when im sleeping
i love falling asleep accidentally
and yes i know you were watching me and didnt wake me :) but i liked it. especially when you partially fell asleep too :)
somethings happened last night :( i hate confrontation....but via internet just feels sad. pathetic even. but i guess im too much of a coward to do anything of that sort in person :/
i wish things could just go back to friendship. it was so much better then. i dont want you to be hung up on me. please be mad, please find someone else, please just....:(
i know it will take time, and that i cant be normal happy elena around you. thats hard to turn on and off, but if you want space then i'll give it to you. i still care for you and im still here for you. always.
stayed up til 4:30 in the morning :S but i didnt want to sleep.
i just feel...content. i do feel awful for wat i did :/ but at the same time i just feel like..i had an epiphany and a wieght was lifted.
i love falling asleep accidentally
and yes i know you were watching me and didnt wake me :) but i liked it. especially when you partially fell asleep too :)
somethings happened last night :( i hate confrontation....but via internet just feels sad. pathetic even. but i guess im too much of a coward to do anything of that sort in person :/
i wish things could just go back to friendship. it was so much better then. i dont want you to be hung up on me. please be mad, please find someone else, please just....:(
i know it will take time, and that i cant be normal happy elena around you. thats hard to turn on and off, but if you want space then i'll give it to you. i still care for you and im still here for you. always.
stayed up til 4:30 in the morning :S but i didnt want to sleep.
i just feel...content. i do feel awful for wat i did :/ but at the same time i just feel like..i had an epiphany and a wieght was lifted.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
The Upsetter
"when i get sad, i stop being sad and start being awesome instead! True story"
i love neil patrick harris
go watch dr. horrilbe's sing along blog
anyways...so ive been in canada a week now...seems longer than that. when i see people they tell me it seems like i never left and that everything is back to normal and i just nod and smile...cause really it doesnt feel that way. haha like how could it? but im trying to start to get over the fact that im gone from australia and focus on me being here now. :)
dwelling on certain things just makes time drag on so i need to...let other things into my mind, and i really need to stop watching these childhoood rom coms haha its depressing. like princess diaries...man ive seen that movie soooo many times! was like my favourite thing ever when i was younger. oh young anne hathaway, props on the feel good movie. anyways yes other things to do...
cathcing up with friends and such.
OH BUT GOOD NEWS! i talked my mom into us maybe going back next august for a long holiday XD. so thats good and hopeful :). im going to stop being sad now. wastes too much time.
Just stop upsetting yourself
Upsetting your thoughts
Upsetting this world
That you’re standing on
- jakc johnson
i love neil patrick harris
go watch dr. horrilbe's sing along blog
anyways...so ive been in canada a week now...seems longer than that. when i see people they tell me it seems like i never left and that everything is back to normal and i just nod and smile...cause really it doesnt feel that way. haha like how could it? but im trying to start to get over the fact that im gone from australia and focus on me being here now. :)
dwelling on certain things just makes time drag on so i need to...let other things into my mind, and i really need to stop watching these childhoood rom coms haha its depressing. like princess diaries...man ive seen that movie soooo many times! was like my favourite thing ever when i was younger. oh young anne hathaway, props on the feel good movie. anyways yes other things to do...
cathcing up with friends and such.
OH BUT GOOD NEWS! i talked my mom into us maybe going back next august for a long holiday XD. so thats good and hopeful :). im going to stop being sad now. wastes too much time.
Just stop upsetting yourself
Upsetting your thoughts
Upsetting this world
That you’re standing on
- jakc johnson
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
fleet foxes.
Yeah, I'm tongue-tied and dizzy
and i can't keep it to myself
what good is it to sing helplessness blues?
Why should I wait for anyone else
And I know, I know you keep me on the shelf
I'll come back to you someday,
soon, myself
and i can't keep it to myself
what good is it to sing helplessness blues?
Why should I wait for anyone else
And I know, I know you keep me on the shelf
I'll come back to you someday,
soon, myself
Monday, July 18, 2011
punishment
is this punishment for wanting to go back...
im stuck here...for the whole summer. i cant drive, and my mom refuses to drive me anywhere...ever. why is our public transport system so bad. fuck this
i want to go back i want to go back. these first few days arent making me want to stay.
cant i just take some of you to australia with me and just go live there....
im an emotional wreck that get her sleeping pattern straight again.
help.
im stuck here...for the whole summer. i cant drive, and my mom refuses to drive me anywhere...ever. why is our public transport system so bad. fuck this
i want to go back i want to go back. these first few days arent making me want to stay.
cant i just take some of you to australia with me and just go live there....
im an emotional wreck that get her sleeping pattern straight again.
help.
Saturday, July 16, 2011
starting this up again...
now that im home from australia...i guess i can go back to this blog now. I'll make my other one for when i travel. ya thats wat i'll do with it....i dont want to delete it :/ i dont want to let go of australia
or let go of anything that happened there.
or the people i grew to love.
sydney is officialy my second home.
boots west hawk lake to third.
And this home, my first home, doesnt feel real. I still think im dreaming
I keep feeling sick, i think its anxiety.
meh im sure it will pass
but i need to appologize ahead of time to everyone...i may not be the happiest of campers this week. :(
i just want it to be sunday so i can go be with my friends. hopefully everything will go back to normal. i want to feel the normal-ness again.
but i just cant gt australia out of my head. UGH GET OUT OF MY HEAD....no dont :(
ok think positive. psoitive positive positive happy. goddamit HAPPYNESS AAAAAAAH!
k that helped a bit :P
bloody hell.
or let go of anything that happened there.
or the people i grew to love.
sydney is officialy my second home.
boots west hawk lake to third.
And this home, my first home, doesnt feel real. I still think im dreaming
I keep feeling sick, i think its anxiety.
meh im sure it will pass
but i need to appologize ahead of time to everyone...i may not be the happiest of campers this week. :(
i just want it to be sunday so i can go be with my friends. hopefully everything will go back to normal. i want to feel the normal-ness again.
but i just cant gt australia out of my head. UGH GET OUT OF MY HEAD....no dont :(
ok think positive. psoitive positive positive happy. goddamit HAPPYNESS AAAAAAAH!
k that helped a bit :P
bloody hell.
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