The brave may not live forever, but the cautious don't live at all.






Sunday, August 28, 2011

can i sleep now?

all done! i am now and advanced scuba diver. ftw XD
im so bloody tired, and my muslces are so done haha.
anywho, i have one day of rest then driving test....aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarg :/ worried.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

scuba :)

three dives later and im BEAT. so tired haha but in such a damn good mood :)
that was great.
so first we did a navigation dive and basically we were given a compass and had to navigate a square and a triangle under the water at around 35 ft then a straight line back to shore under the water. i thought it was gonna be so hard but we did it :) i have a really good partner too so that was nice.

second we did a search and recover dive, where we had this rope thing and one person kneeled on the bottom at 35 ft again and the other held the rope and swam in a circle around the person kneeling, the second task we did was attaching a floating device to a log or something and bringing it to shore...that was interesting haha, my hands were so numb though so it was hard to attach the floater to the log.

and the third dive was an independent dive, so just me and my partner...no instructor or anything. that was my first time on my own, and i did that navigating and got us back to were we started successfully :)

it was surprisingly warmer than i thought it would be but once we got to around 30 ft we hit the thermocline and god damn that was cold like....lkjfldkjs couldnt feel my face.
man i got a bit worried too because i kept getting nose bleeds :S never had one before in my life soooo i was a tad sketched out with that one :p but i feel fine, so my brain hasnt exploded (y)

ugh i cant even think straight atm im so done. im going to take a nap
deep dive bright and early tomorrow, hrm

peace.


Thursday, August 25, 2011

i got this

i cant concentrate, im very jumpy and edgey. this weekend is worrying me.
it'll be my first time diving in cold fresh water, and the suit i have to wear is the biggest beast ever and gives me leg cramps. i feel so out of control in that thing errrg!
i had a dream that i was doing my deep water dive and someone knocked my mask off and i couldnt find my partner and i obviously couldnt go up because that would be really dangerous...so i was trapped, blind 100 ft under the water, freezing and all i can hear is my deep inhale and exhale.

fuck it was scary.
i feel so stupid under the water, the instructors staring at you waiting for you to understand them, and you cant talk or ask wat the hell they are trying to say so you stare blankly back. i guess i should brush up on my signals :/


ok ok ok i need to calm down. im being stupid and im psyching myself out RAAAA!
k this is going to be an awesome weekend, happy happy, excited woooooo!
k cool.
i got this. :)

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

after the storm

you amaze me, either you're really strong....or i dont know. im so worried.
jesus, i cant stop crying and i didnt know him
but please dont ask me if im alright, ask yourself :(
you were there though, and thats what matters right?
your face was the last thing he saw, he heard your voice
its kind of beautiful.

im here if you need me, always.



Tuesday, August 23, 2011

high on nothing :)

ive got a friend, shows me all the good times. Tells me i look better, chews me up and spits me out then walks my ass home.

had the best spontaneous night with my girl. starbucks run, chillin in a parking lot talking and listening to dane cook, fancy dinner at earls wearing a dress that made my boobs look entirely too large, wandering in an unkown forest in search of a long lost tree house of my childhood, and blasting music in her car in an empty parking lot and dancing around not caring if poeple thought we were high. We were most definately not high, we dont need that shit to be insane, no way. :) just high on life (apperantly there is a new drug called life or something so saying you're high on life isnt legit anymore :/ tainted)

and someone really made me think about stuff tonight. dont know wat to make of it though :/

Thursday, August 18, 2011

titf.

bahahahahah i re-read our conversation....wtf happened to me? :p

Saturday, August 13, 2011

awkward silence

im not going to go over there just so i can be publically called out...like really?